This Body is Bullshit
Still showing up, even when everything hurts.
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I wasn’t scared when I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Not because I didn’t understand how serious it was—but because I believed I’d beat it. I trusted my body, my doctors, and my strength. And honestly? I still do. Not all of my doctors failed me. Dr. Hansen—my breast surgeon—was one of the good ones.…
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Over the weekend, my husband lost a friend. A good man—kind, private, and strong—who fought cancer quietly. He didn’t let many people in on just how bad it was until about a year ago. He lived across the country, which made it hard for his friends to be physically present. They tried. But he kept…
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We had just gotten back from a weekend at our happy place—one of those rare weekends where your cup is full, your soul feels lighter, and you’re still carrying the good vibes from being with your favorite people. I was feeling calm, recharged, even a little joyful. Then I pulled into the driveway and waved…
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Subtitle: A love letter to sleep, guilt, and getting through the damn day Some mornings, it takes dynamite to get me out of bed. I’m not being dramatic. I mean that slow, heavy, body-aching kind of dread where you stare at the ceiling and try to bargain with time. Just five more minutes. Just ten.…
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Matt met me when my life was already in full swing—messy, busy, loud, and packed with baggage. I was a single mom raising a daughter. I had trauma I hadn’t unpacked. Chaos was the default setting. But he didn’t flinch. He didn’t try to fix me or make me easier to love. He just stepped…
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I hear it a lot:“I miss the old Molly.” Well, I don’t.She was exhausted. People say it like I’ve slipped away somewhere and they’re just waiting for me to bounce back with glittery party invites and an armful of Jell-O shots. But the truth is, the old Molly doesn’t exist anymore. And if I’m being…
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My dad is a character. Capital C. My dad grew up as a farmer in a super small town in Central Illinois that no one’s ever heard of. His dad was a state representative and farmer, and his mom was a teacher. He wrestled at Southern Illinois University, flew little planes, sold designer suits, and…
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I left him when she was two years old.I didn’t leave because I suddenly found my strength—I left because she deserved better. There was a time when I didn’t recognize myself. I was hollowed out by a relationship that chipped away at me little by little. The damage he caused went beyond words. It left…
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Let me say the quiet part out loud: breast cancer is practically a rite of passage now. It’s everywhere. A dime a dozen. There are ribbons, walkathons, hashtags. It’s so common that people have actually said to me, “Well, if you’re going to get cancer, that’s the one to get.” And honestly? Some days, I…
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There’s this weird space you land in after you’ve survived something big. People look at you like you’re a warrior, a fighter, a walking inspiration—and yeah, I’ve earned some of that. But what they don’t see is how exhausting it is to keep surviving. Every day. Quietly. Without falling apart. I’m still in pain. All…